Tuesday, 3 June 2014
Now, at age 40, and reflecting on my narrative reply to myself when I was 15, I guess I have reached some sort of conciliation with my inner adolescent. I'm very grateful for my life, and I have made some peace through this study for my experiences.
We all will die, I will die, and although not morbidly obsessed by that fact I have a feeling that that is ok-and I am here to learn and express what I can as an artist, and as a person, in the contexts of multiverses-a partner, a son, a friend, a lover. Even hopefully one day a partner in a marriage under the auspice of man-made law. I believe that as spiritual people, Steve and I are already married in a kind of spiritual bond, you could say.
That offers up different types of law. One is man-made, one is spiritual law, and the other is moral law. I am reminded of a quote here by Einstein. That is, ‘The rational mind is a faithful servant, and the intuitive mind is a sacred gift. We have created a society, that honours the servant, and has forgotten the gift.’
I think of this in terms of my book, Ego & Soul. For without knowing it at the time, I was describing the corruptible, and the incorruptible. That is, the ego, and the essence, or spirit.
In this book, you can literally see the ego being corrupted, as the title suggests, i make myself naked, literally, and expose the sum of prejudices I have learned by that time. Yet as I explained in the foreword, that sometimes I felt my art was directed by The Great Spirit itself.
Spirituality could in some ways reflect opposite themes for me. One is the mystery of life-the other are the certainties that I will, in my childlike way as I used to type on our play typewriter, 'go back to the place of origin'. I knew this and still feel I know this and I consider that the elements that make up a person manifest through different energies, from both far away and close places. By far away I mean we manifest partially, in an unseen manner, from the higher dimensions described in sharmanic knowledge where we have not had to suffer the burdens of a four dimensional experience. That of course, is being in a human body that has a spiritual intelligence attached to it. One might call it a cosmic ballet. In my version of spirituality, what I feel and have for a long time, albeit forgetting it in times of trauma, is that my childhood mantra will happen-that we will return to the place of origin.
The other thing about this, is remembering to ask this energy into your life. By this I'll give the following example. I have performed some meditative 'healings' with people which I don't care to go into detail about here, but when I ask the person 'When was the last time you asked your guides for help?', the answer is inevitably 'A long time ago'. As a spiritualist I am giving of the affirmation that if there were an MCG of people, passed ones, angels, and helpers that are available for service-and that all you have to do is ask of pure heart, that this can help. I indeed have to remind myself to ask for help, and sometimes fall into the role of the doubting Thomas.
In 2007 I had enough funds behind me to publish a book myself. It was entitled, ‘Strange Currencies of Ego & Soul’. I named this book with some awareness of what it meant, but upon further reflection I note that the Ego in the title is the more earth bound pragmatic sufferance of life, and the Soul is the prana breath, the spirit and channeling of something broader than, but also including myself and the broader universe.
Likewise Einstein once said ‘The rational mind is a faithful servant, and the intuitive mind is a sacred gift. We have created a society, that honours the servant and has forgotten the gift.’ Somehow, this statement oversees the book ‘Ego & Soul’.
In my masters work, this resonant idea of opposites (the science and the art, the pragmatic and the esoteric), has evolved again. I am using Phi as a mathematical concept to construct something that has a quite spiritual meaning. The opposites are there, which is the mathematically pragmatic, and also the channeled energy of the description of love and sometimes its occasional casualties.
One of the earliest images I remember seeing of this art vs science was in Michelangelos drawings of say, a helicopter idea. A drawing in which a screw like mechanism is conceptually drawn to rise up into the sky. This is a great example of when science meets intuition. It also bears the question, where do ideas come from and where do they go?
Many a time I have lied awake at night and thought of either a guitar riff or a piece of art or idea and thought, ‘Yes, I’ll remember that tomorrow’. Unfortunately in most cases, unless you act on those ideas and record them in some type of form, they are forgotten. It is in the recording of ideas and perceptions that the essence of art is born that happens within a context of time and place.
Interestingly, all of my work for this masters study has been presented on a screen via electricity and pixels on a computer screen or an iPad. There is something fascinating about this and the relationship to a wide audience in that the information can be ‘reproduced’ or screened in multiple places many times over. It reminds me of Warhols Pop Art qualities, in that to be accessible and relevant, there has to be something exciting, sexy, and fresh about it, yet on the other hand that is the way in its pure reproductions that its banality is exposed.
Art and science I think have been seen as different genres in the past, but more regularly, art has been made out of data. (ref). In my artwork there is a huge spectrum of ideas ranging across 4 or 5 distinct projects.
- The universal Embrace interactive display,
- The narrative of the project acting cumulatively that includes a narrative to my inner adolescent,
- The children's book ‘Grogan the Monster, in ‘What do you Love’,
- The Free energy Love Machine, Mark I and II,
- The data of all the imagery I have amassed to enrich these projects.
These items are not visually similar, but have rhizomatic links between each other.
Cover a lifetime
Accept the inner child, heals the inner adolescent
Frees the mind to not judge own ideas
Works with art and science in a harmonious way
Is self actualising in terms of encapsulating the whole person
Eccentricity of ideas is celebrated and not denied
Singular paths diversions is the path.
Art class notes
The eccentric is a mysterious creature
Peculiar behaviour is its notable feature
Lost and alone in a world of conformity
Where oddness is seen as a dreadful deformity.
Yet, of all the creatures, the true non-conformist
Is often the brightest, the boldest and warmest.